The Valid Reason

It's not that I've completely forget about you, it's just that I have better things to do now. Like painting rainbows.

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The Crumpled Note

I did tell you that my heart is made of glass.
I did tell you it's broken.
Now, why on earth do you still ask me what am I doing everyday, in the dark, and all alone on the street?

Obviously, I'm picking up the pieces, trying to put them together again, and see whether it's still working like it used to be.

I'm busy mending broken heart. Stay away from me.

It hurts.
And I'm not sending you this note.

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The Heart Made of Glass

"Someday I don't remember why I make a mess of myself like this, and think to myself if I leaving your depths is truly what I want.I dig to free myself. And when I accomplish that, it will be time to dig you out of me." - Anonymous

Ahh life is an unknown journey.You never know what awaits you in future.
And to be hurt by someone you love is somehow killing you softly.
It hurts to see the person you love, loves someone else. But it is even worst to know that he/she loves the wrong person.
And by the time he/she realizes it, it is the time where we already found someone else.
And what hurts the most is that, he/she comes to u and tells u that what he/she did was a mistake,n thinks that u both are made 4 each other
And this emotional rush and breakdown happens, and u feel like screaming to his face and tell him/her to leave. Your head tells you he's a jerk.
But deep deep in you, you always feel that he/she's the one. But life must go on.

Sometimes, life is cruel like that. Ahh. Just bear with it.

The Irony of the Heartless

People who claim that they are heartless, are usually the emo-est person alive. Believe me. I've seen a few. Ahh. Talk is cheap.

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The Rusted Bell

It's been awhile now. No more you, no more me.
It is all about my future and I.
No matter how hard and loud the bell rang in the past,
no sound, not even the resonance can shake me.

At least, I'm trying here.

The Drug In The Departure Lounge

Waking up to this kind of emotion, it sucks.
Why did everything turned into something else?

I miss you, idiot.

I'll go somewhere, far far away from everyone else.
Far enough from the thoughts of you.

I won't take valium. Just distance would do.

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The Wishing Well

I wish I could just scrap out the chapters that shouldn't be in the story at the first place.
I wish I could tell the unwanted character to drink some poison and die.

I wish I could turn back time.
I wish you were never exist.

I wish.

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The Ghost-limb Phenomenon

You are my lost limb. I continue to feel that you are still here. Truth is, you're gone for good.


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Most Inspiring.

The Vagabond

You set my feeling homeless. It wanders all around, following the path you take.
And sometimes it collides in the middle of the journey, when my heart realizes the truth. But, my feeling is a hardcore vagabond, wandering and still waiting for you to provide a place called home.

And I know, it is absurd.

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The Excessive That Means Nothing

Too much of anything will make you sick. And cry. And there's nothing much left in the end.
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The Time That Passes By

Sometimes time heals everything, sometimes time makes things even more complicated. And you are the combination of both.
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The Ersatz Tunnel

I saw the light. And I chased it.
The light brought me to a tunnel.
A tunnel that could lead to the end.
A tunnel that I've been searching for.

As I came closer, I realized, it was just a bridge, covered with canopy trees and creeper, that made the bridge looked much like a tunnel.

The bridge will take me to another chapter of life.
And I bet, it's going to be a long journey.
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The Wicked Magician.

You called. You made me smile. And I wore that smile the whole night. Everything you do is so magical like that. But they say, magic is fairy tale. And fairy tales don't always have a happy ending.

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The Heartbeat.The Lie

I received your text message. My heart skipped a beat. Maybe two. I don't know. I replied. And I lied to myself. And you'll never know.

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Plan

I need to plan for my future.
I need to write it down so that I won't forget.

And I need Allah's help to make it work.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

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Stronger

"When we long for life without difficulties, we must be reminded that oaks grow strong in contrary winds & diamonds are made under pressure" - Islamic Thinking

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Burn

I burned the thoughts of you,
along with the pain I felt.
So that they will become dust


and there is no way I can put them together again.

Forward

Little things

I never thought that all the little things you do
Affect me in many ways

Light Source

Somehow, you are still dear to me.

The cover :)

We did this just for fun. and excuse us for the sumbangness and the low quality sound and video. and ada part yang terpotong/tersekat tu, sorry, its my first time record a video guna my macbook. and excuse us foe the annoying skype sound.so yeah. :)

I wish you were here

I miss you.

Say it to me

Cause this is what you've waited for
Your chance to even up the score
And as these shadows fall on me now
I will somehow

Cause I'm picking up a message Lord
And I'm closer than I've ever been before

So if you have something to say
Say it to me now

Say it to me now


-Once OST,Glen Hansard

Unsaid

too much to tell!

Facial Cleanser

Previously, I was using Origins Never a Dull Moment facial cleanser, and it works like wonder. It has Extract of crushed Papaya, it melts makeup, dirts and and pore-clogging debris. My skin feels velvety soft (serious tak tipu) after I used it. But I had to use scrub ( I used Origins Modern Friction rice scrub)once a week to exfoliate my dead skin cells, which sometimes I terlupa. Tapi rezeki tak panjang, my  newly-bought Never a Dull Moment was stolen few months ago, and I dah tak ada duit nak beli hehhh.
and there I go, living 2 months plus without facial cleanser. so basuh muka guna sabun mandi.terukkk!

and today, I went to Alamanda, and I found this:

Simple Clear Skin Oil Blancing EXFOLIATING Wash. nampak tak word exfoliating? Ini lah yg I perlukann hehe. Sebab tak rajin nak cuci lepas tu scrub berasingan, I terjumpa ni terus gembira. You see, I have Normal to Oily skin, they say combination skin. And I really need something like this. It has witch hazel which helps to reduce blemishes, Natural Zinc PCA that absorbs excessive oil, Pro-Vitamin B5 that actively restores, softens and and smoothes skin and yeah, it has no perfume and colour. I'm not a fan of fragrance free stuffs because because they usually ended up smelling so chemical-ish which makes me wanna puke. But this one smells fresh and I'm loving it. and it's so cheap! I'll write a review on the results after using it for 14 days.  :)

Leaving on a jetplane

I haven't packed a thing, and I'm so lazy right now. oh, I made a list so that I won't forget important things to bring.

*erghs banyak gila benda dekat dock.

random : You always like that. You never change, I guess.

Battle of none

Thoughts of you come,
Whenever I sit here, all alone.
They bring noises
like the sound of swords and shields
clashing at the battlefield
filling the empty head of mine.

I always try to figure out what's left for me to care about.

and I realize, nothing's left.
It's just another mere battle of none.

The Plain Truth

I learnt that hope and miracle cannot be in the same sentence.
If it is so, the sentence is just a plain white lie that a person tells to himself, to make himself feels better.
I've been there, done that.

And, miracle happens when you least expect it.


Reality bites.erghs.

The Brightside of it

Now, I continue the journey, holding tight to this emotion of 'Thank You'.

Because you made me be what I am today.

The Evil Distance

I hate it.
I hate it when I started to feel the distance. The distance that drifts us apart. The distance where I cannot reach you.

The evil distance.

Red Light Indicates Doors are Secured

I'm not a mannequin
That you can see at any dressmaker's place
which has no emotion, no feeling.

I'm just like you
I'm under those same stars
carrying a thing called HEART.

and Hamlet Chocola's 36 Crispy Choc.

You guys love Pringles? Yeah that potato chips that come in various flavours.
OK sekarang cuba bayangkan kepingan pringles potato chips tu adalah kepingan chocolate yang nipis. tak dapat bayang lagi? ok fine tengok la gambar ni

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Ha sekarang nampak? selalu kita makan chocolate mesti dalm bentuk tebal godang kan. yang ini nipis senipis pringles chips.  Sedap sungguh. This is a product from Belgium. Sebelum balik KL, my sister sempat singgah Belgium dan beli benda ni.

sila terliur. I ada sekotak kat bilik.bye!

Stroopwafels

So my sister just got back frm Netherlands, and she bought stroopwafels for us!
Well honestly it was my first time having stroopwafels and I immediately fell in love with those super delicious wafels with caramel in the centre after the first bite!

sumpah sedap gila! fine lah bapak jakun I kan tapi memang sedap gila benda ni.
Dah la I memang caramel fan pun. So macam bila makan tu macam "this is soo ma thanggg yo!"

You see, this stroopwafels is the Dutch signature snack, and if you go to NL, tapi tak makan stroopwafels, memang rugi gila. Macam lebih baik tak payah pegi NL weh! ok over siot. macam I pula yg pergi. Tapi benda ni macam manis sikit la. caramel kan.

Ini stroopwafels yang I makan. picture: source

This is how it looks. See the caramel filling? God it is sinfully delicious! meleleh ayaq lioqq!
picture:source

Okay itu saja bye.