Constant Reader

So who's my constant reader from Perak? I think i know you. Hello from the other side!

The Sinking Ship

That last bubbles that saved you before the ship finally sank were the last moments you saw before it finally ended. You somehow knew and saw it coming. 

But do you remember the strength you gathered just to hold on to your last bubbles? 

I bet you do.

The Memories in Pandora Box

"Picture perfect memories is all i have. I'll always reminisce the good times we had whenever I feel like I'm missing you,"

"Listen, do some justice to yourself. Those memories aren't meant to be remembered. You should chuck them into a pandora box,"

"Why? Pandora box usually contains all the evils of the world, right? But my memories are the purest, most significant to me,"

"Those memories are the source of troubles. You know the rule of handling a pandora box. You may not know what kind of problems you are getting yourself into when you open a Pandora Box,"

"So are you suggesting that I should put our memories into a pandora box and never open it again?"

"Definitely. And move on. You'll be happier,"

The Real Tragedy of A Twosome

It's so tragic knowing this has finally ended. Why do all good things come to an end?

They say, the real tragedy is not when you love someone and that person doesn't love you back. It is when you both love each other but for various reasons, you can't be together.

It's really heart-breaking.

The Natural Flights of Human Mind

I like it when you remember little things about me.

And the fact that you would go extra miles just to make sure I'm okay.
Like a ray of light in a dark room.
You bring hope.

The Failure of A Catapult

It's good to be able to write again after so long. Life has been pretty hectic. Things happened, one after another. Career change, friends getting married, series of heartbreaks, life changing decisions, ahh so many things. I've never imagined myself to experience all these, and the fact that I did, I somehow took these with an open heart and mind. There must be reasons why God made it this way. I bet there's a lot more to come, resting in the catapult, waiting to be blasted off. And when it happens, it's going to be a real hit. Gotta brace myself though.

But fret not, His plans are always the best. Sometimes I wonder, why me? But come to think of it, everybody has their own struggles. And they get hurt as much as I did, but in different events and scenarios. 

Well, I hope for more positivity this year. Or at least, I would find answers to the questions I've been asking my whole life.

Happy New Year 2016.

The Love in An Open Sea

"Are you deeply in love with me?"
"Hm yes,"
"It's quite dangerous you know, to fall in love with me,"
"But why?"
"Imagine, right now you are in the middle of the ocean. You're too far from the shore and it's almost impossible to turn back. You're lost in that ocean now,"
"Hm, so what do you suggest? Should i love you less? Clearly I can't do that,"

"Keep lost in that ocean. Because the ocean needs you,"

The Drowning Shadows

The feeling was there, all along.
It was kept secret under the rug, so that nobody knows.

But you came, and told me the feeling was mutual.
You felt the same too, way before.
And I believed you.

I let down my guard, and told you stories about stars and rainbows.
You did the same.
And I believed you.

You said you scared of losing me.
You said you love me.
And I believed you.

I let the feeling grew each day.

One day, you left me without notice.
You asked "when will i see your face again?"
But you never come back.

You let my imagination runs wild.
Painted the images of things that we could possibly do together.
But you never come back.

I fell so hard,
I believed you.
But you never come back.

Today, here I am, picking up my self again.
Picking up the pieces of me you left along the way.
And you'll never know.

The Undefined Feeling

The Missing Chapter

Things that happened in the past, will always haunt you, especially the ones that hurt you so much. No matter how hard you forced yourself to dust it off and move on, you failed miserably, each time.

You cried and blamed yourself for what happened. And you lost it. 

And every moment you spend to mend your broken heart, is the missing chapter.

You. Me. We should be happy.

The Happy Pill

Sometimes I feel like taking a break from all this nonsense and do something creative and colourful. And be happy. 

The Developing of Dementia

Guy: Hi! 

Girl: Hi. 

Guy: What's wrong? 

Girl: I am very worried. 

Guy: Oh, what happen? 

Girl: I keep on forgetting things.  

Guy: That's bad. What are the things that you keep on forgetting?
Girl: Your name and the memories between us. 

The Point of Which

You seem really happy with your life now. 

I just hope that you don't come back and  try to patch things back. 

Just move on. 

Long Hiatus

It feels good to be able to write again. It's been awhile since I last wrote. Life's getting more serious each day. And to keep up with the momentum is a real challenge. It's either you really fast to stay ahead of the game or you lose it. You can't do much about it.

On a totally unrelated note, seeing some familiar faces everyday somehow keeps you sane. But they say you can't be too happy about something. Take into consideration the reciprocal effect. In other words, just be careful of what might await you in the near future. It could be better, it could be worse.

As I'm getting older, I started to see how things work. When something happened, it may look or sound bad, but as the time goes by, everything will start to make sense,  and it is rarely as bad as it seems. At the age of 24, I learn how to rationalise things. 

Just have faith, Allah is The best planner.

The Patronizing Light

As you surfaced from the dark,
I saw a bright light at the other side of the road
The bright light that I adored so much
The bright light that I thought would mean something.

The presence of the bright light had put my mind at ease.
Day by day,
I became a better person

But life ain't easy, they say
The bright light isn't mine, they say
I don't deserve it, they say
Because it belongs to someone else.

And here I am, standing alone
Defying the gravity that constantly pull me to the bright light,
Rationalising myself
and calculating what's left inside,
Trying so hard with all my might to stay away from it.

The Amnesiac Reporter

After what happened, after years have passed, after series of heartbreaks, I completely forgot who you are, how we were, and how did things become like this.

I need a fresh start.

The Science Explains It All

So I bumped into you. And it didnt feel right. It hurts so much that I had to look away.

Well, it wasn't me who decided to react that way, it was just a series of memories flashing back one by one before my eyes the moment I saw you.

And my heart sent a signal to the brain and then to the whole body system to move and look away, impulsively.

The Thing That Matters

I have so many things to worry about rather than trying to fix whatever is happening between us.

I have goals to achieve, I have plans to execute, I have dreams to keep me alive.

And you. You're a history.

The Delay It Caused

If only I could take a flight straight to your heart and see what went wrong.

And it's impossible.

Just come home.

The Agony You Chose

Have you ever working with situation that you know exactly what is going to happen? And then you go into it anyway, and then when what you're afraid of happens, you kick yourself because u should've known better.

Because that is just who you are, so you keep punishing yourself.